This cake was on the table this morning. How could my day not be great?
I am trying to think of things to write that aren’t kind of sappy and Pollyanna, but the truth is, I am happy. I am very, truly, happy. I am filled with hope and optimism. I feel so blessed that I am tearing up. Of course, I am an emotional person so I cry with every emotion. I think it is one of my blessings. So I am going to just write what is going through my head.
Thank you. No, really, thank you. Sometimes life is hard and sucks, sometimes it is beautiful like it is today. It is the nature of life. The very, very best thing I have going into my 3rd decade is that I know I have people who I know love and care about me. When I went into my twenties, I didn’t have that knowledge. I had friends, but I would never have guessed that I would have the people in my life that I have now. For someone who always felt strange and somehow wrong, knowing that you have people who love you for exactly who you are is the single greatest thing. My life is full of love and support. All of my happiness, hope, and joy springs directly from that.
I haven’t felt that birthdays were about gifts in a long time. I think they are a time to tell the special people in your life that you are excited that they are on the earth and in your life. I believe my birthday is realizing how many people care about having me in their lives and celebrating their role in my life.
I think birthdays are about being excited about what comes next. I have so much ahead of me. This past year has been a crazy ride but it has been amazing. I wouldn’t have traded a second of it, even the dark painful parts. I discovered myself and I got to see how much love is out there for me if I am willing to accept it. Sometimes I feel like smacking myself on my forehead for not realizing how simple the secret to happiness is. Happiness is simply being open to the good, accepting the bad and allowing yourself to learn from it, accepting yourself, loving people for who they are and allowing them to love you back, and weinie dogs. That’s it. I hope I can remember that.
I love that there was earthquakes today and no one got hurt. I love that I have m first draft done on my first book done and last night the revising went so well. I love that it is Guy Fawkes day. Today, I feel like I can roar into my next chapter of my life. The earth is shaking because it knows I am coming for it.
Again, thank you for being in my life and putting up with my shit. I have learned so much through you guys.
Okay I am all done being all girly and emo.