I’m going to be completely honest with you guys: Tuesday my give a shit was damn near broke. I had a billion tiny things to do, and my sinuses and allergies were kicking my ass too bad to do them with any flare. And, if I were really honest, I would admit to myself, missing a blog day wasn’t world ending, especially since it would have been a little whiny one. If things go as planned and I’m lucky, I won’t be writing a blog Saturday either.
On that note:
I present you a bad ass mother of a lawn gnome. I bet nobody steals this guy.
I realized I’m sort of impetuous (awesome word). I was just typing out the words “I used to be very cautious and thought about every decision and agonized about every choice,” but I realized that was some bullshit I made up in my mind. I’ve always been the type to rush full force into things.
I believe thought and consideration are good. I think weighing your options is smart. But I think there it can cause entropy and fear of action. I think somewhere a long the way I developed a fear of fear. I never want to not do something because I’m afraid of it. It has led to me putting myself into some strange situations. It is also responsible for most of the forward action in my life. That fear of fear drives me to be who I want to be.
Also, at a young age, I realize that I will make mistakes. I watch people petrified by fear of doing the wrong thing. I want to sit with them and assure them they are going to fuck up. Everyone fucks up. Fucking up is not the end of the world. You learn, adapt, and try not to mess up in that particular way again.
Mind you, I’m not suggesting we rush willy-nilly through life without ever contemplating our actions. That is the sort of thing those YOLO douches promote. I’m saying at some point in time you have to put thought and ideas into action (one of my personal failings) and realizing some decisions don’t need to be agonized over. Never again will I stress out over something in a video game. It’s like falling in love; the worst thing that happens is you end up with a broken heart (if you make good decisions about other things) and the best thing is you end up with someone wonderful.
I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore… You guys know what I mean.
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