Taking Stock

Screw Y’all I’m DONE

So, I’m drinking apple ale and eating Hershey’s Cookies and Cream Easter egg thingies.  Aside from allergies, life is good. It, unfortunately leaves me with nothing to write about. I’m kinda stoked about that. If I’ve missed blog days in the past three months it as either because something was exploding or I was so depressed I didn’t want to write. Okay, Okay, that is a bit of an exaggeration. There were several days in there when I was busy for good things.

All of that is beside the point. I’m happy. I’ve had a string of happy days. Yes, the past two days I have been to the Super Wal-mart both days, and it was a MAD HOUSE. I haven’t done much writing. I made the mistake of starting one of my favorite trilogies of all times (The Tawny Man by Robin Hobb), and I’m having issues pulling away from that. I’ve decided to stop trying, finish the last book and a half, and then pick a less interesting book to read next time.

If I were really, super honest with myself, I would admit a lot of my happy and distraction is because of the Viking. A year ago tomorrow, I was having an incredible day with my friend Renee, first at the the medieval fair then at our friend Angela’s baby shower. Somewhere in that day of awesome, I told Renee I was giving up on men, shutting down my Plenty of Fish profile because only creeps had messaged me, and focus full force on my writing. That night the most incredible and strangest man in the world favorited me  on the site and I messaged him. My life hasn’t been the same since. I know, I know, sappy as hell.

Next Saturday, I’m spending the day with Renee and my goddaughter at the medieval fair again. My relationship with Renee is another strange and wonderful thing. I love her dearly, and I have for many years. We see each other four times a year, at most. We talk on the phone maybe once or twice a year. Most of our communication is done on Facebook. But, even with our sporadic contact, our friendship stays strong. Our relationship is like a rock we can always return to and find an ease and comfort of someone who knows you and cares deeply for you without recriminations.  I’m just really looking forward to seeing her again. Maybe I won’t get a sunburn this time.

I think right now I’m going to take a deep breath and take inventory of all of the good in my life. I’ve been so focused on what I’ve had to do or what I was doing wrong or what was going wrong, I had a hard time being genuinely grateful. Sometimes, it is impossible to be grateful to your core.  Sometimes it is impossible to even pretend to be grateful at all. I know this, but I also know I’m happier when I can find it in me.

I know, well when I’m calm I know, I have a life filled with strange and wonderful blessing and strange and wonderful people. Things will get stressful, and I will forget. I hope I will always find a way to remember though.