Thursday I was busy being wooed by the most wonderful man on Earth and therefore did not blog. I am unrepentant. Yesterday, I got to spend the afternoon with Tina. We got to talk about life, books, and my writing. Of course, she gave me an idea that I think will make my current project just even more ridiculously awesome. I’m lucky to have such a creative, intelligent person to read my stuff and help me find out more about my world.
I got home and things went nuts. Things are going to be fine, but we had a stressful night. I might have to get a job soon. I’m not upset. We do what we have to do to take care of our families. I’m just a little frustrated because my writing just exploded. I can still write while working, I just won’t have the luxury of being able to run the hours that are most conducive to my creativity. Honestly, though, I think everything will be fine.
I do know for certain that I have two weeks of my life as it is right now before I have to start trying to run normal hours.
I’m going to use those weeks for everything they are worth.
I won’t get my draft of my book done. My goal is to get as far along as I can. Every night needs to be productive. I have to use this time to every possible advantage. Talk about a motivator.
I’ve decided to work out a tiny bit every day. It helps me deal with the stress. The work outs are pathetically small, but I’m not exhausted or in pain afterwards. I just feel more relaxed and my body feels stronger. Also, 10 minutes a day on a recumbent bike is a lot less of a hassle than an hour that is involved in getting ready, driving to the park, walking, and driving home. I’m much more likely to keep it up, and I’m going to tell myself something is better than nothing, even if it isn’t strictly true.
I’m making a deal with myself. I’m not going to let fear, stress, intimidation, or any of those other things I normally let wiggle into my head affect me for two weeks. I’m going to do my best to be the woman I want to be, the woman who gets shit DONE, and I will do it no matter what. Besides, I had my mini-breakdown last night. Tina and the Viking reminded me I’m awesome and can handle anything.
I’m kind of curious about what happens.
I pray I don’t disappoint myself. I can’t let me disappoint myself. I WON’T disappoint myself. I believe I can do wonderful things. I believe I can be successful. I know I can do it. Dear God, please let me not disappoint myself. Oi…
Is there more coffee somewhere?
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