The Year of being Bat Shit Insane

After two weeks of not blogging, I’m back.

August was another rough month in the middle of a rough year. I was sick. I was actually very sick but I had to pretend I wasn’t because there was just so much I had to do and go through. I got on some horse pill antibiotics and I’m definitely on the mend.

I took a look at myself and my life and realized I’m a little broken right now. By I took a look at myself, I mean Tina pointed it out to me even though she felt like an asshole for doing it. True friends say things to you like that even if it might make them feel like an asshole. I appreciate her for it.

I’ve decided to try and start some therapy. I don’t know how it will go, but I think it could help. I think in the craziness that has been this last year of my life, I’ve lost a lot of perspective and a lot of the things that make me wonderful. I’ve also noticed myself slipping into old, unhealthy behaviors in all of my relationships, and all of them are being affected. Part of that is my loss of making myself a priority in my life, and that I’ve stopped asking for what I need from the people I love.

Spending some time getting that shit straightened out will help. I think it will make me healthier and more capable of dealing.  Just making the decision and starting the process has made me feel more calm and more in control of my life.

On a side note, I finally got a smart phone. I am one of the last people under the age of 50 to have one. I will be able to take more pictures of my world and share them with you guys much easier. It makes me very very happy. I think it should be pretty win.