*Brain Esplodes*

I like to think of myself as someone who boldly goes forth in search of what she wants and smiles and makes friends easily. I have a feeling that the truth is closer to me being a homebody that allows herself to settle into something comfortable and safe. I think I remember being bolder, funnier, and less concerned about comfort. After the break-up, I got to seriously looking at who I am and what I want and I decided I need to change things around.

First off, I cancelled my WoW account. I am not one of those people who believes World of Warcraft ruined my life. My life isn’t anywhere near ruined and I am responsible for the state it is in. I circled far into myself and let myself lose bits of me. World of Warcraft made it easier because it offered a diversion and socialization. I am still gaming but I am playing Rift instead. I am working on the premise that it won’t be as all consuming as WoW. If it turns out to be, I hope I see it and am able to fix it.

I have also decided to start my application process for WorldTeach to teach in American Samoa for a year. There is a lot to do for it. I need two references, three short essays, my transcripts, and an interview. The essays are only two to three hundred words which isn’t difficult in itself but I am going to take my time and write them thoughtfully with several drafts. I am probably going to ask someone else to read them since I have the tendency to not see my own mistakes. (Hmm, imagine that, me blind to my own mistakes.) I have asked one of my references to be a reference for me and I need to contact the other. I have ordered my transcript.  I will think about the interview later.

I need a job. The WorldTeach program requires a two thousand dollar deposit and I think a job would be good for me. Lets be honest here. I can write with a job. I can do all the other stuff I want with a job. I need a job.  I don’t know what kind of job I want since I think it would be inopportune to start a career job, so I am just going to look around, no fast food though. I need to write a resume. I hate writing resumes. I hate writing resumes more than I hate strep throat. Very soon I will sit down and write one. I promise. Holy smokes, I hate writing resumes.

I was looking for a different theme for my site through the WordPress selections and I realized yet another thing I need to do, I need to work on learning website design. I actually really enjoy it and I think I could be really good at it. I just need to do it.

I am also considering stopping writing with a theme. Five full months of theme blogs should prove I can do it. I miss my old blogging style and I have gotten enough in the habit of blogging on a set schedule that I think I can come up with things to write about without a theme. Any thoughts?

Okay I am ending this post now before it becomes even more of a strange Woody Allen neurotic rant. I owe that to the world.